Well, hello everyone, I was planning to start my blog happily because there are many things I want to share here related to my career and work after the pandemic I was finally able to return to Jakarta, meet my friends again, and return to work again. But here unfortunately before I had time to post it, in 2023 in October I had to accept a destiny that required me to be strong. It still feels like a dream. I still didn't expect this year to be a sad year for me and my family. my third brother passed away on October 27th. I also don't know what to say, guys. my heart is broken, I don't know how to be able to accept and strengthen myself, my family, especially my mother. my brother was diagnosed with a brain tumor.
In July he was hospitalized following a series of hospital recommendations, from running the operation. I had time to take care of him too while in the hospital. In August after VP Shunt surgery (surgery performed to drain the fluid in the head to the stomach) my brother's condition improved, and could be treated at home. Almost every weekend I returned to Jogja from Jakarta to take care of him. I tried to be steadfast, we were looking for information for my brother's recovery.
Long story short, my family and I tried and were optimistic about my brother's recovery. we still had hope that he would recover and be able to gather with us again. until in October he suddenly entered the hospital again and finally died on Friday, October 27, 2023.
All of this is still like a dream to me, everything happened so fast. I didn't expect my brother to leave so soon. just in 2019, I lost my father, and now this year I lost my beloved brother. I believe all of this is God's plan. and I must try to be sincere and strong in everything that has happened in my life.
all of this feels heavy and unpredictable. if it weren't for the prayers of my dear family and friends, maybe I couldn't be this strong. I need time to heal and recover from all this sadness. even though in my heart I believe my brother and my father are hard to be in the most beautiful place. there are no words that I can say to express my love for them. I pray every day for them. it's unfortunate that my plans to gather and unite with my family are now just a memory. I hope I can get through all of this. on this blog, I also want to thank my friends who have encouraged and cared for me and my family.
